The Story Behind Counter Culture Mama

Counter Culture Mama began with a rebrand and an admission: growth changed my convictions, and my convictions changed my work.

For years, I built an online business that mirrored what I believed at the time — that if I worked hard enough, healed deep enough, and aligned perfectly, life would finally click into place. I chased results through mindset work, energy healing, and spiritual striving. Reiki certifications, oracle readings, kundalini practices — if it promised breakthrough, I tried it. And at first, it felt powerful. I spoke the language of energy, alignment, and abundance, and I truly meant it.

But the more I “optimized,” the less peace I felt. There was always one more layer to clear, one more ritual to perform, one more reason I wasn’t quite there yet. If a launch flopped, I blamed a subconscious block. If money slowed, I needed to expand my receiving channel. It never ended — and the pressure was all on me.

That search eventually led me into the Akashic Records. I saw clients experience real relief, and for a while, I thought I’d found the key that therapy and mindset work hadn’t unlocked. But doubt started creeping in. Some of it felt temporary. Some results depended more on suggestion than truth. And underneath it all, I started to wonder — was I chasing power more than I was seeking God?

I stepped back, even when it scared me. And one day, while washing dishes, an old worship song came on. I turned it up and just wept — not from sadness, but from something deeper breaking open. That moment changed everything. I started reading the Bible again. I started praying again. And what I found wasn’t another “state” to maintain — it was peace. Real peace. The kind that doesn’t depend on your mood or your manifestation practice, but on a foundation that doesn’t move.

Coming back to faith wasn’t neat or simple. I had an oracle deck headed to print and friends who knew me as the “Akashic reader.” And at the same time, some Christians wrote me off as deceived. I felt caught in the middle — too Christian for my old world, too “woo” for the church. But in that tension, I found humility. I stopped repeating phrases and started testing truth.

One of the first places God worked on me was in my marriage. The word “submission” used to make me roll my eyes. But I was exhausted — tired of control, tired of friction, tired of feeling like I had to lead everything. So, I tried something different: respecting my husband’s leadership with curiosity instead of sarcasm. And almost overnight, the atmosphere shifted. Less competition. More peace. The fruit came before my full understanding did, and I realized that obedience to God’s design actually leads to freedom.

That became the pattern. God’s ways — even the ones I didn’t like — kept proving themselves good. My old mantra of “live your truth” gave me permission to justify anything that felt comfortable. But the truth of Scripture called me to yield — and that required strength, humility, and the courage to stand alone sometimes.

That’s what Counter Culture Mama is about. It’s about conviction without cruelty. Clarity without contempt. It’s about holding the line when culture blurs it — in how we do business, raise families, and build marriages that don’t crumble under ego or exhaustion.

Here, we’ll talk about the hard things: health, education, the digital pull on our kids, and what it means to raise families anchored in truth. I’ll share what I’ve learned the hard way — what didn’t work, what did, and what finally brought peace that lasts.

As I release my oracle deck, I’m also building a free devotional that pairs each card with Scripture — adding context, truth, and correction where it’s needed. Not to rewrite the past, but to redeem it. To help others who are where I was — curious, conflicted, and craving something real. This doesn't mean that I personally use oracle decks anymore... but my goal is to meet people where they are on their journey and use my past in a way that glorifies God.

If you’re new age and curious, you’re welcome here. If you’re Christian and cautious, you’re welcome too. If you’re just tired of all the noise and hungry for truth that stands when the world shifts — you’re home.

I won’t preach at you, and I won’t flatter you. I’ll just tell the truth — about what I tried, what failed, and what finally brought me back to peace.

The podcast is where I share that process out loud — the journey from self-reliance to surrender, from chasing enlightenment to walking with Jesus. We’ll talk about faith that anchors, families that flourish, and leadership that costs something. Because where culture demands applause, we’ll choose integrity. Where algorithms reward outrage, we’ll choose patience. And where fear isolates, we’ll choose community — even when it’s messy.

That’s the counterculture I’m after.